In many occasions, it's hard to express yourself. One of the opportunities I recently have is the one-hour free time in subway. I'm using it to study or listening to audio books. The book I finished listening today, is the abridged version of "House of Bush , House of Saud" written by Craig Unger. It makes me wonder: if only part of the evidence he's provided is true, then we live in a world led by people blinded by thirst of power. It's not a fairy tale any more. It's really heart-breaking.

Also, at the same time, I wonder when a system is huge, how it gets impossible to realize a simple fact, or to answer to a simple question, be sure enough to say Yes or No. That's because if it were like that, then many of the famous people mentioned in the book would have ended up somewhere else.

I wonder why someone might produce chemical weapons or even worse how can it be used or how people close their eyes even on confrontation with indisputable facts.

I also wonder whether it can be clear some day that a historical event happened exactly why or how so that we can actually learn from it.

There is just so much we don't know and may never know...